Happy Monday, everyone!
I don’t know about any of you out there, but this Monday is my first day back to work after spring break. Do I want to be at work today? To be completely honest, no. The last few days have been totally unplanned and unexpected, and not for the better. I had this vision of spending my last few days of break relaxing and, really, it was anything but. So, the thought of my alarm going off this morning and having to make the trek to work was something that I wasn’t particularly looking forward to.
Another thing I really need to acknowledge is this weather. Where the hell is spring, and why hasn’t it arrived yet? I am so sick of waking up to snow on the most random days of the week. I mean, the whole idea of having to switch back and forth between spring jackets, to vests, back to my knee-length North Face is a concept that I am completely sick of and ready to move on from. I had these high hopes during my past week off to start preparing for my big move by packing up all of my winter stuff but, because Buffalo is so awesome with weather, the joke was on me – I needed all of these clothes readily available.
I don’t know. Did I really have a point to this post? Other than to have a reason to complain and whine and carry on, no not really. I’m just ready for some sunshine and some relaxation.
I wonder which will come first? xoxo.
Well, here we are again. It’s Monday. And this Monday seems a little harder than most because it’s my first day back to work after nine days off. Thanks to mid-winter break, I was getting extremely used to being off and having not really much of anything to do. I’m sure all my teacher friends can relate to this on an extremely high level. Sure, I didn’t sit around the house day after day, but I most definitely took it easy. My days were filled with shopping, looking at apartments, visiting with family and friends, going to lunch, visiting the eye doctors – some pretty exciting stuff, I know. But as yesterday was winding down, I really didn’t want to face the fact that this morning I would have to get up and get back into my normal routine.
I am a very routinized person. I tend to like everything to follow a certain pattern as the days and the weeks go on. I am sure this week, for the most part, will seem as if it is going slower than molasses, but knowing me, by the time Friday rolls around, I will wonder why I ever was so happy to break free from my life’s pattern. No matter how much I try not to admit it, I am one of those people who always likes to keep busy. Sure, yesterday I spent the entire day at home in my pajamas, but that’s so unlike me that I am sitting here looking down at myself thinking, *wow, you really haven’t moved.* Even on days off, I tend to go-go-go. I hate feeling like I’ve wasted priceless hours away for nothing. Even if I only do so much as walk around the mall window shopping, I like feeling like I am actually doing something meaningful, even if it seems extremely insignificant. But, I will admit, that veering off the typical, routinized path is a great break every once in a while.
I liked having time to myself, going through my day at my own pace, not having to worry about getting places on time. I liked taking the time to have that second cup of coffee in the morning instead of rushing out the door. I liked taking the time to actually get ready – to do my hair and makeup and wear my nicer clothes that I don’t always feel comfortable wearing to work. I liked being able to go out to lunch instead of eating the same things everyday, and taking the time to eat it instead of worrying about getting back to work in 30 minutes. I liked having the freedom to spend time with my brother, someone who I don’t see much anymore. There is no doubt that I do not live a hard life. I am fortunate and thankful that 99% of the time, things are running smoothly. But even for those of us that tend to have things a little easier, it’s rewarding to take a step back.
So, as this Monday goes on just remember, there’s almost always another break waiting right around the corner. xoxo.
Hiya friends and family.
Did I mean to take a mini-hiatus last week? Absolutely not. But life has been all sorts of crazy, blog posts didn’t get prewritten, and life moves on. We’re all still here and alive and breathing, so I can’t stress over two or three missed blog posts, right? *exhale* Right! So, let’s see. What has happened between last week and today? A whole heck of a lot, that’s for sure!
Apartment hunting has come full swing and this time around, it’s 175% more stressful knowing this isn’t just a place to go once or twice a week. It’s extremely frustrating to me that I paint an exact picture of what I want in my mind and then spend time looking and searching only to find that exactly what I want doesn’t exactly exist. And things that can pass off as near-perfect come in handfuls, only resulting in my indecisiveness getting the best of me. I think my greatest fear in this entire venture is the fear of not loving my home a few months into it. That I will regret not looking at “just one more” place, or that there is a place out there that I didn’t even know existed and I could’ve had my hands on. I kid you not, at first, my list of potential places I would live is quite possibly the entire North Buffalo area. After spending hours yesterday narrowing this list down and making a spreadsheet of people to call and places to see, this next month has gotten extremely busy in the blink of an eye. I totally blame this entire stress on my OCD and wanting everything to be perfect, which isn’t necessarily a bad thing, but I am starting to actually annoy myself. Sorry, world, because I’m sure you’ll hear the brunt of it!
In the midst of all of that, Valentine’s Day suddenly became a short handful of days away. I knew this, as mentioned on my site last week, but I swear I forgot and thought I had more time to figure it all out. How pathetic, right? So, off shopping I went [as if I really needed an excuse] for some Valentine’s Day goodies, and also some birthday gifts for my dad. It took me forever to figure out everything I wanted to buy, and I wandered two malls and a Target for a large chunk of time and eventually ended up with some pretty good gifts, if I do say so myself. Then came gift wrapping and organizing. Shockingly enough, somewhere in the midst of that, I had time to bake some Valentine’s Day sugar cookies too – any excuse to use the KitchenAid mixer is a good one – not that I needed to sit here and eat two dozen cookies.
So now as I type this out on a *disclaimer: not Monday* Sunday night, I have a time to sit back and breathe. I am currently cozied up on the couch with my berry LaCroix water, some of those aforementioned cookies, wuth Keeping up with the Kardashian’s streaming in the background. It’s crazy to me that to so many people, this past week-ish would not be considered a busy weekend. I am in absolute awe of not even bloggers, but people in general, that have a million different things going on in a million different directions but still manage to have their lives together and get everything done on time. There’s days I feel like I am failing as an adult, or am being viewed as immature for what I think crazy is. Hopefully, one day I’ll get there and have it all together. But for now, I’ll take what I can get, and if what I can get is this road I’m on, I can’t complain.
I’ll get there one day, but until then, I’ll appreciate my time watching the Kardashian’s before bed. xoxo.
Guys, I am three assignments/exams away from a Master’s degree.
That being said, today’s post totally didn’t get pre-written, totally didn’t go up on time, and totally is about to suck because I am stuck in the whirlwind that is my life on the road to graduation [finally].
So, for this Monday [evening], I will leave you with my most current motivator that is pushing me through every single moment that I want to rip my hair out [aka every moment of my life as of recent]:
“Don’t think about what can happen in a month. Don’t think about what can happen in a year. Just focus on the 24 hours in front of you and do what you can to get closer to where you want to be.”