Hiya friends and family.
Did I mean to take a mini-hiatus last week? Absolutely not. But life has been all sorts of crazy, blog posts didn’t get prewritten, and life moves on. We’re all still here and alive and breathing, so I can’t stress over two or three missed blog posts, right? *exhale* Right! So, let’s see. What has happened between last week and today? A whole heck of a lot, that’s for sure!
Apartment hunting has come full swing and this time around, it’s 175% more stressful knowing this isn’t just a place to go once or twice a week. It’s extremely frustrating to me that I paint an exact picture of what I want in my mind and then spend time looking and searching only to find that exactly what I want doesn’t exactly exist. And things that can pass off as near-perfect come in handfuls, only resulting in my indecisiveness getting the best of me. I think my greatest fear in this entire venture is the fear of not loving my home a few months into it. That I will regret not looking at “just one more” place, or that there is a place out there that I didn’t even know existed and I could’ve had my hands on. I kid you not, at first, my list of potential places I would live is quite possibly the entire North Buffalo area. After spending hours yesterday narrowing this list down and making a spreadsheet of people to call and places to see, this next month has gotten extremely busy in the blink of an eye. I totally blame this entire stress on my OCD and wanting everything to be perfect, which isn’t necessarily a bad thing, but I am starting to actually annoy myself. Sorry, world, because I’m sure you’ll hear the brunt of it!
In the midst of all of that, Valentine’s Day suddenly became a short handful of days away. I knew this, as mentioned on my site last week, but I swear I forgot and thought I had more time to figure it all out. How pathetic, right? So, off shopping I went [as if I really needed an excuse] for some Valentine’s Day goodies, and also some birthday gifts for my dad. It took me forever to figure out everything I wanted to buy, and I wandered two malls and a Target for a large chunk of time and eventually ended up with some pretty good gifts, if I do say so myself. Then came gift wrapping and organizing. Shockingly enough, somewhere in the midst of that, I had time to bake some Valentine’s Day sugar cookies too – any excuse to use the KitchenAid mixer is a good one – not that I needed to sit here and eat two dozen cookies.
So now as I type this out on a *disclaimer: not Monday* Sunday night, I have a time to sit back and breathe. I am currently cozied up on the couch with my berry LaCroix water, some of those aforementioned cookies, wuth Keeping up with the Kardashian’s streaming in the background. It’s crazy to me that to so many people, this past week-ish would not be considered a busy weekend. I am in absolute awe of not even bloggers, but people in general, that have a million different things going on in a million different directions but still manage to have their lives together and get everything done on time. There’s days I feel like I am failing as an adult, or am being viewed as immature for what I think crazy is. Hopefully, one day I’ll get there and have it all together. But for now, I’ll take what I can get, and if what I can get is this road I’m on, I can’t complain.
I’ll get there one day, but until then, I’ll appreciate my time watching the Kardashian’s before bed. xoxo.