Think good thoughts.

motivation

The spring semester began yesterday at the strike of 12 and I am already ready to lose my mind. I know, I know, it sounds over-dramatic, but I can be because I want to complain.

My agenda is already over-filled with assignments, readings, and projects that need to be completed within the next 15 weeks, and can we just talk about how I have already spent $300 on books…not including the 4 books that are in my “save for later” pile on Amazon. It is always overwhelming when you go to deposit money at the bank and then not even 3 hours later, blow most of it on grown-up expenses

*surprise you have money!! oh, just kidding, no you don’t*

After my day at school, I had to run to Target [shocker] to pick up a couple of binders and a new pen/pencil pouch, considering my orange highlighter decided to explode all over my now-old one. When I was there, of course I had to take a look around the little dollar section, like I always do. I wasn’t going to look at anything but the 4 binders that I needed, because I was in a terrible mood and just wanted to go home and lay in bed and start my homework, but I am glad I did.

For $1, I found this little wooden inspirational sign that reads “THINK GOOD THOUGHTS” [pictured in this post] and, holy cow, did I need this today more than ever. I have been so overwhelmed with basically everything lately, mostly because the next 6 or so months will bring about some big changes. I went right home and placed it on my little cube dresser for me to see everyday, both when I wake up in the morning and go to bed at night.

Already, this little motivator has reminded me of all the good that did happen today. I was able to turn in a voucher to get the tuition for one of my classes completely covered, I applied [and am continuing to apply] to new jobs, an older man at the bank told me I had pretty eyes, and my coffee this morning was made with the perfect amount of cream and sugar.

No matter how crappy things look in that moment, there will always be something positive to remember to put your mind at ease. It is just your job [or a mini-dollar-section-inspirational sign’s] job to remind you of that. xoxo.

My current go-to playlist. 


1. Paris by The Chainsmokers. I’m still waiting for the day that this duo releases a single that I don’t love. I mean, who still can’t get Closer out if their head!? Their newest single is just as good, if not better, than the rest.

2. Higher by Rihanna. I’m still on an Anti kick, even months later. This is one of my favorites off the album, but honestly, who can even choose just one favorite?

3. Out of my Head by The Griswolds. You can’t help but belt this bad boy out. This newest single of theirs will put you in a feel-good “I can kick anyone’s ass” kind of mood. [SIDE NOTE: someone come see them with me at The Waiting Room in March!!]

4. The Pocket by Andy Grammer. Can we just discuss how I’ve loved this dude for years and now he’s always a fill-in on the Today Show and performing halftime shows at major football games?? I saw him for FIVE DOLLARS at Niagara University a few years back and it was one of the best shows I’ve seen! This is a little bop from his first album, but it never gets old.

5. Past Lives by Børns. I love how this song goes from being melodramatic to a song you can dance to at the bar with your friends or sing at the top of your lungs in the car. Added bonus, he’s so hot.

6. Pop Style by Drake. When I saw Drake over the summer, this was one of the best he performed in concert. It’s always a go-to. I don’t think I’ll ever stop!

7. Strange Love by Halsey. Most commonly, this song tends to be linked to my boy Matty Healy, but the beats are so unique. And her voice…wow. I can truthfully say she sounds just as good in person, too. I had the chance to see her open for Imagine Dragons before she exploded into the spotlight.

8. Need to Know by Macklemore feat. Chance the Rapper. I never really used to be a big Macklemore fan until my brother turned me onto him. His new album didn’t get as much hype as the last one, but I tend to like the albums and songs that other people don’t for lord only know what reason.

9. Mercy by Matt Nathanson. He speaks the truth in every single one of his songs, this one no different than the rest. Plus, his music always reminds me of summer, which is perfect right now considering we’re in the depths of winter.

10. Paris by The 1975. This is my favorite song off of ILIWYS. It’s just so smooth and easy on the ears. Plus Matty has the voice of an angel.

xoxo.

The struggle of figuring out how to adult.

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With about one semester left of grad school, it’s starting to smack me in the face that one day I’m gonna have to “grow up.”Actually, not just one day. It’s one day soon. Part of this sad reality came from asking for business attire, a blender, and money to put towards college tuition for Christmas and birthday gifts. How wild is that?

My boyfriend and I even bought a cute little dry erase calendar for the apartment to try to organize everything as best we can. Although the calendar looks full, it’s really only appointments, schedules, birthdays, and little events that are on there.

The more and more I try to plan out and organize each new month, the more I see that even though I think I am so busy or stressed now, chances are, I have no idea what is coming for me. I mean honestly, I only have to take care of myself – get myself to class, get myself to work, buy food for myself, make sure my homework is done. I don’t have a home to take care of, kids, anything like that.

The older I get, the more I am realizing that not everything can be planned out. My boyfriend is often a good reminder of that, as he always tells me that there are certain things in life that will happen unexpectedly. That there are things that will be thrown at you that you can’t prepare for. The more I realize this, the more I realize how much admiration I have for my parents and my grandparents for doing everything they do without losing their minds.

There are so many of my friends that seem to have everything figured out. They are either engaged or married, have kids, have a house, a stable job,  and have what seems to be an established life. Sometimes seeing all these posts on social media can knock me down a bit, because here I am at age 24, still in school, still waiting for a big-girl job that is not being a retail manager, still waiting for “life to begin.” While I know that 24 is still so young, it can still be hard feeling like there’s so much more you feel like you could have done in these few short years – things that are different than what you actually did.

While things can get overwhelming, I have to realize how lucky I actually am. I have a family who loves me. Friends who are always there for me. A boyfriend who supports me. A chubby little guinea pig. A roof over my head. [A little] money in the bank. An opportunity to further my education. I have food on my plate and a warm bed to crawl into every night. And that’s pretty damn awesome.

Hopefully one day soon, I’ll figure out this whole grown-up thing. I won’t want to nap to get away from the world. I’ll choose a pencil skirt and heels over distressed denim and converse. I won’t want to have ice cream for dinner. And once I do, I hope I’ll be able to look back and wonder why the heck I was ever stressing out in the first place.

Things I’m currently obsessed with. 


1. NYX Butter Lipstick in the shade Sugar Wafer (BLS13). Holy hell do I love this shade. The formula is creamy as hell, which makes it perfect for the chapped winter lips, and the color is perfect if you know you want to wear a lippie, but don’t want to go bold. It goes with honestly everything. I snagged this shade at Nordstrom Rack for $4!

2. Drive Like I Do by Drive Like I Do. If anyone knows me, they know my obsession with the band The 1975. Lately, I have been going back and nonstop listing to the pre-1975 era 1975. If you are new to the fandom and didn’t know about the pre-existing life of Matty and the boys, listen to this album. Right now.

3. Parenthood. I will admit, I am sooooo late to this party. I was recently looking into new shows to watch on Netflix and landed upon Parenthood. It’s something I always wanted to start but for some reason, never did. I am about 6 episodes in, and I am hooked. [Honestly, I’m sitting here counting down the minutes until I can go home and watch more].

4. Strawberry, peach and banana smoothies. I’ve been on a smoothie kick lately. Usually late at night, I crave something sweet like ice cream. But I’ve turned to the alternative that is smoothies. It is cold like ice cream. Kind of tastes like a milkshake. But is so much better for you. And sooo easy to make [thanks to the NutriBullet]. Once I’ve 100% perfected my recipe, maybe I’ll share.

5. Oversized sweaters. Okay, okay. This really isn’t anything too out of the ordinary for me or anyone. But lately, the last few sweaters I’ve purchased I’ve gotten in a L/XL size because, duh, they are soooooo warm and cozy and so perfect to pear with leggings or skinny denim. And, you still look cute and put together and appropriate for [most of] the work environment! So technically, this is a win-win.

Farewell, President Obama.

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In 2008, President Obama became the first African American man ever elected President. The Obamas were a top-notch family. No scandals, no turmoil. Not everybody had to like him, but I did. [DISCLAIMER: I will never tell anybody who to like vs. who not to like – this is solely my own opinion!]. To me, he was not some figure that I couldn’t relate to. He just seemed like a normal, everyday man with a normal, everyday family. Heck, Michelle often rocked these killer outfits that were affordable from stores that even I shopped at!

With the end of his Presidency near, here are some of my favorite things that President Obama has said over the last 8 years.

“Change will not come if we wait for some other person, or if we wait for some other time. We are the ones we’ve been waiting for. We are the change that we seek.” – President Obama, on change.

“Tonight, we are once again reminded that America can do whatever we set our mind to. That is our history, whether it’s the pursuit of prosperity for our people, or the struggle for equality for all our citizens; our commitment to stand up for our values abroad, and our sacrifices to make the world a better place.” – President Obama, on the potential of America

“If we aren’t willing to pay a price for our values, then we should ask ourselves whether we truly believe in them at all.” – President Obama, on the importance of values

“We still believe that this should be a place where you can make it if you try.” – President Obama, on making it

“We have an obligation and responsibility to be investing in our students and our schools. We must make sure that people who have the grades, the desire and the will, but not the money, can still get the best education possible.” – President Obama, on the importance of higher education

“Our journey is not complete until our gay brothers and sisters are treated like anyone else under the law – for if we are truly created equal, then surely the love we commit to one another must be equal as well.” – President Obama, on marriage equality

“We must carry forward the work of the women who came before us and ensure our daughters have no limits on their dreams, no obstacles to their achievements, and no remaining ceilings to shatter.” – President Obama, on glass ceilings and achieving dreams

“If you’re walking down the right path and you’re willing to keep walking, eventually you’ll make progress.”  – President Obama, on change

“Sometimes, when we’re lying together, I look at her and I feel dizzy with the realization that here is another distinct person from me, who has memories, origins, thoughts, feelings that are different from my own. That tension between familiarity and mystery meshes something song between us. Even if one builds a life together based on trust, attentiveness and mutual support, I think that it’s important that a partner continues to surprise.” – President Obama, on Michelle

And, how could we forget his love for children! [Warning: your heart will melt]

Thank you for the last 8 years, Mr. President. On to the next chapter. xoxo.

SOS! Send help! 


I am looking into ways that I can get my daily dose of caffeine [or other means for energy] without necessarily depending on cups and cups of coffee.

One thing I’ve wanted to work on this year is monitoring my cofffee consumption. I waste a disgusting amount of money on coffee every month, and am not a really big fan of drinking coffee black. So far, I have relentlessly failed. In the last 8 days I’ve probably drank more cups of coffee than I can count on my hands and toes combined.

If you know any tricks or tips on how to eliminate the overdose of caffeine while still maintaining high energy throughout the day, please let me know. xoxo.

New music from Ed Sheeran?! 


I repeat..NEW MUSIC FROM ED SHEERAN! It may have only been since 2015 since he gave us something new, but those 2 years felt like 20. Am I right!?

I was perfectly okay with the release of a new single, but then I saw it. There were not only one, but two, and I could not contain my excitement!

Shape of You and Castle on the Hill weren’t done in typical Ed fashion, but boy, to me, they were done perfectly. It’s like in the last 2 years, Ed found an entire new side of himself and I love it. Synthesized beats, a compelling chorus, and fast pace melodies make me so excited for this new album to be released [finally]. He’s back and he’s not messing around!

Find these songs. Sit there. And listen. I promise you won’t be disappointed.

Thank you Ed, you rock. xoxo.

90’s babies unite!

283563_2072098676944_6849798_nBeing born in 1993, I am indeed a 90’s screen-shot-2017-01-06-at-9-56-32-pmbaby. While the 90’s for me ended at the tender age of 7, one thing that stuck with me is my ever-obsessive love for the Goo Goo Dolls. I remember hearing my first-ever Goo Goo Dolls song at as young as 3 years old, and can proudly say I knew almost every lyric to every song on the Dizzy Up the Girl album by 1999. They were my very first concert and I still buy tickets every single time they come back home.

Here I am at age 24, new album Boxes being released last May, still hopelessly in love with a frontman who is the same age as my father. [When worded that way, it’s disgusting, but come on…he’s hot!]. When people ask who my favorite artists are and the Goo Goo Dolls is on that list, they look at me like I have 7 heads. What they don’t realize is that their songs have helped me through some of my toughest times, their lyrics have related to me more times than not, and these songs have capped off some of my most amazing memories.

When asked to pick what some of my favorite lyrics are, I have to stop and think and try not to pick them all. So after serious consideration, I’ve narrowed it down to a select few [in order of release date].

“Everything’s wrong, but it’s alright.” – Two Days in February from Hold Me Up, 1991

“It’s a beautiful life, and I’ve got it in my sights. Ain’t that so obvious?” – We are the Normal from Superstar Car Wash, 1993

“And scars are souvenirs you never lose, the past is never far.” – Name from A Boy Named Goo, 1995

“When everything’s made to be broken, I just want you to know who I am.” – Iris from Dizzy Up the Girl, 1998

“I wouldn’t be the one to kneel before the dreams I wanted.” – Sympathy from Gutterflower, 2002

“You’re caught in the rules of the world, it’s a just a promise no one ever keeps. Now it’s changing while you sleep, but no one here can see.” – Truth is a Whisper from Gutterflower, 2002

“Laughter is my soul’s release.” – Can’t Let It Go from Let Love In, 2006

“I wish everyone was loved tonight and somehow stop this endless fight, just a chance that maybe we’ll find better days.” – Better Days from Let Love In, 2006

“So live like you mean it, love ’till you feel it, it’s all that we need in our lives.” – Before It’s Too Late from Goo Goo Dolls: Greatest Hits Volume 1, 2007

“I need you there when the nightmares and dreams have come true.” – Something for the Rest of Us from Something for the Rest of Us, 2010

“If the world should turn its back, you know that I’m still here.” – Notbroken from Something for the Rest of Us, 2010

“Say goodbye to all the things in life that tried to pull us down.” – Keep the Car Running from Magnetic, 2013

“When life gets hard, we get brave. We all get scared, it’s okay.” – Souls in the Machine from Boxes, 2016

“It’s hard to be yourself when everyone around is changing. Open up your eyes and you’ll never lose yourself again.” – Over and Over from Boxes, 2016

** You got two posts today, because yesterday was a day from hell and I did not get home until 11pm from 7:30 in the morning. So, I made it up to you with the double post today. xoxo.

The highs + lows of insomnia. 

blue-cartoon-moon-night-favim-com-1176403Day 4 of this blog writing thing and, as you can see, I’ve changed it up a bit! Welcome to my new blog!!

This all came to me last night when I couldn’t sleep. For lord knows what reason, yesterday was one of those days that dragged on – I was tired, couldn’t wait to leave work and lay in bed, etc. Now that’s all fine and dandy until it came time for normal people to actually sleep and there I am..wide awake.

I sat there contemplating all of the different reasons as to why I could possibly be awake when I was so tired all day long. I hadn’t had a coffee since before work, didn’t consume loads of sugar before bed. I had no distractions, I was laying there in the pitch black mentally screaming to myself “whyyyyyyyy!”

So, instead of wasting away precious hours of my youth, I was up until 3AM *yawn* researching different/easy to use blog sites and then began creating this page! There are still some things I’d like to tweak, but for now I am so excited!! Who doesn’t love a lil’ pop of color or being able to see my shining face on screen?!

I have uploaded all of my previous posts onto this site so everything is in one place. To everyone who has been reading what I’ve had to say so far, thank you! I appreciate you and can’t wait to keep this thing going. xoxo.

24 things I want to accomplish + focus on in my 24th year

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Today is my birthday, and I have made it my goal for this year to complete everything on this list during my 24th year of life. Let’s get it!

  • Worry less about the things that don’t matter. [I tend to stress over every little thing, so this is my main goal for this year].
  • Learn to put down my phone and pay more attention to life around me. Sometimes I can get so caught up in technology that I forget there are things happening in the now.
  • Attend at least one concert. Doesn’t matter who or where, just one
  • Get a 4.0 GPA for at least one semester. This has been a goal of mine for a while, and I always come so close, but never have accomplished this feat.
  • Religiously go to the gym [and lose 10 pounds]. I’ve been feeling kind of blah about myself lately and the way I look, so losing some weight will help build my confidence.
  • Eat better / more nutritious foods. I’m usually not too terrible in this aspect, but pizza is my friend, and also my enemy.
  • But also continue to eat ice cream every once in a while. Because who doesn’t love ice cream?
  • Drink more tea instead of coffee. I waste sooo much money on coffee, it’s borderline ridiculous. And I’ve recently gotten into a bad habit of adding cream and sugar that I don’t need.
  • Watch my brother graduate from high school. This will happen. But it’s an important milestone.
  • Send my brother off to college. He doesn’t know where he’s going yet, but he knows he is moving away from home, as every college he’s applied to is out of our hometown, so moving him out will also be an important milestone this year.
  • Reorganize / redecorate my bedroom. I desperately need to de-clutter and get rid of some old clothes.
  • Save more money. I’m usually pretty good with this, but I can definitely do better.
  • Travel. A lot. Preferably to places I’ve never been before.
  • Try seafood. I despise everything that swims, but I’m ready to try and face my fears. At least once.
  • Find a new job doing something I love. I feel like I am at a dead end with my current job, so a fresh start might be good for me.
  • Enroll in a how-to class — like cooking, painting, pottery, etc. with my best friend or boyfriend. This is something I’ve talked about a lot, but now I just need to man up and do it.
  • Continue to take dance classes once a week. I love this, so this shouldn’t be any issue to continue on.
  • Spend more time with family. I still live at home, so this isn’t hard. But with our 4 different schedules, sometimes it is harder to all sit down as family than one might think.
  • Capture more memories. Sometimes I regret not taking pictures of important moments. I need to step my game up.
  • Read more books. I love reading, but I tend to get distracted by other things. I need to force myself to make time to do this.
  • Have more me time. I tend to focus on everyone else. I need to have some time to myself to relax.
  • Start going to church more. This is a big one. I used to go religiously, going to Catholic school and all, and have really fallen off this path.
  • Spread love. So important. Everyone needs to know they are loved once in a while.
  • Be happy.