Walkin’ in a winter wonderland?!

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So, unless you have been living under a rock, you probably have heard about this gnarly snow storm about to hit the Northeastern U.S. Well, of course, this is where I live. And, of course, of course, I am not happy about it.

Living in Western New York, I should be happy that this is the first major warning we’ve gotten this year. It took until now for this 12′-18′ winter storm warning crap to hit us when, usually, we’re about a handful of winter storms into the season by mid-March. But, I am spoiled. So, again, I am not happy.

I ran to Wegmans today to grab a couple things and people were stocking up on groceries like the zombie apocalypse was ahead of us. It always makes me laugh because people always prepare for terrible weather around here and it ends up being completely blown out of proportion and we get 0.00008 inches of snow or rain or etc.

Tomorrow I have an 11 hour work day ahead of me, so I will be inside for the majority of this alleged storm. But, I would much rather be in my bed wrapped in a blanket, watching Netflix. [HOWEVER, perks of my new job: I could have a snow day!].

Hopefully all these weathermen and women are wrong and it will be 65 and sunny tomorrow. Cross your fingers. xoxo.

You are not alone.

I came across the article, What It Feels Like To Have Anxiety, Because It Isn’t Us ‘Being Crazy’ by Hayley Greenwood on Thought Catalog, and it almost felt like fate that I found it. [Truly, shoutout to this girl, because I really enjoyed this article].

just had this conversation with my best friend not even 48 hours ago. How do you describe what anxiety feels like to someone who has never experienced it before? Together, we could not even come up with an answer. This article, however, sums it up to a T.

What I’m gonna do for you is pull some of my favorite snippets out of this article that I think are the most important when it comes to living with, being with, loving someone who experiences anxiety.

And if it is you that is reading this that goes through these struggles, know you are not alone. Know that if you are ever belittled for what you are going through, you do not deserve it; you deserve to get out. You deserve to be supported. You deserve to be loved, for your entirety; anxiety and all.

  • “It gets to the point when it’s the loudest voice in the room, no matter how much you try to get rid of it, it’s just there.”
  • “Your mid will convince itself that things are worse than they really are.”
  • “People underestimate what anxiety really is. You want to call those who overthink everything or make up scenarios in their head crazy, but you don’t understand: those with anxiety can’t control it.”
  • “Be careful with your words – don’t say we’re overreacting, to calm down or to stop worrying. Do you think that if we could stop worrying, we would have by now?” [I think this is honestly the most important thing to take out of any of this, and if you have made it this far to read this, do not forget it].

If you or someone you know needs help, you can call the 24-hour crisis lifeline at (800) 273-8255. xoxo.

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Fri-yay!

Did anyone else’s week completely drag so far that they feel like they have completed an entire year? No? Just me? Well, alrighty then.

This week, while exciting, lasted forever. I don’t know if it was my lack of sleep from this weekend and roadtripping or being overwhelmed by school and new job things, but let me tell you, I am absolutely ecstatic that today is Friday and tomorrow I get a break.

So many good things have happened between Sunday and now; my brother’s team won states, I started my new job, I passed my certifications, etc. etc. I won’t bore you with the details. But I also cannot shake this exponential tired feeling. I have fallen asleep so early that I am wondering how it is even remotely possible that I even have one ounce of exhaustion left in me.

Hopefully, I can catch up on some relaxation tomorrow. All I really have going for me is getting an oil change in my car. And figuring out whether or not I want to chop all my hair off *like the pics below*. [SIDENOTE: What do you think?? Should I do it??]

I hope your Friday and your weekend is filled with good times, good music, good food, and good moods. Now, time to relax. xoxo.

 

Slow cookin’ 101.

After some crazy days of job training, studying for SCIP certifications, writing papers, and trying to breathe, I had a second to sit back and unwind a bit from all the madness.

I turned to my trusty CrockPot and made some dinner and a little dessert for my boyfriend and I. Today’s recipe, Slow Cooker Creamy White Chicken Chili. I found this recipe on Pinterest, of course, and could not resist. It just sounded soooo good. Plus, the weather has been quite cool, so what better to eat than a nice, hot bowl of chili?!

I got everything I needed for this recipe (not including the chicken, I already had some of that in the fridge) for $17! You can’t beat it. Check out the recipe below.

I also put together some brownies with Resee’s peanut butter cups. What more could you want out of life, honestly? And then I wonder why I can’t seem to lose any weight as fast as I’d like.

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Slow Cooker Creamy White Chicken Chili

  • Prep Time: 5 minutes
  • Cook Time: 8 hours
  • Total Time: 8 hours, 5 minutes
  • Servings: 6 servings

Ingredients:

  • 1 lb boneless, skinless chicken breasts, trimmed of excess fat
  • 1 yellow onion, diced
  • 2 cloves garlic, minced
  • 24oz can low sodium chicken broth
  • 2 15oz cans great Northern beans, drained and rinsed
  • 2 4oz cans diced green chiles
  • 1 15oz can whole kernel corn, drained
  • 1 tsp talk
  • 1/2 tsp black pepper
  • 1 tsp cumin
  • 3/4 tsp oregano
  • 1/2 tsp chili powder
  • 1/4 tsp cayenne pepper
  • small handful fresh cilantro, chopped
  • 4oz reduced fat cream cheese, softened
  • 1/4 cup half and half

Toppings

  • Sliced jalapeños
  • Sliced avocados
  • Dollop of sour cream
  • Minced fresh cilantro
  • Tortilla strips
  • Shredded Monterey jack or Mexican cheese

Instructions:

  1. Add chicken breasts to bottom of slow cooker. Top with salt, pepper, cumin, oregano, chili powder, and cayenne pepper.
  2. Top with diced onion, minced garlic, great Northern beans, green chiles, corn, chicken broth, cilantro. Stir.
  3. Cover and cook on LOW for 8 hours, or on HIGH for 3-4 hours.
  4. Remove chicken to large mixing bowl, shred, then return to slow cooker.
  5. Add cream cheese and half and half. Stir, then cover and cook on HIGH for 15 minutes, or until chili is creamy and slightly thickened.
  6. Stir well and serve with desired toppings.

Enjoy! xoxo.

 

What an eventful day.

I am sitting here typing this at 9:33pm wondering how I am even still alive and functioning after the last few days I’ve had.

My trip home from Long Island finally ended at 4:58am,giving me a whopping 47 minutes to lay in bed and sleep before day one of my new job.

Monday’s always suck, but this Monday morning was absolutely dreadful. I slept for literally as long as I possibly could before having to wake up, shower, get ready, eat, make a lunch, etc. before making the trek to job training. In the back of my mind, I kept thinking about the weekend I had, hoping to find some glimmer of happiness to keep this day going, but I just couldn’t shake the fact that I was so unbearably tired driving into work today.

Once I got to my job, I got greeted with a “hey, time to take your ID picture!” ever so fitting that the badge I have to wear now sports the most disgusting sleep-deprived, hair in bun picture of me I have ever seen in my life. So bad, that I am contemplating faking a lost-ID scare and paying the $5.00 for a new one.

My first day was honestly great. I learned a lot and got some free pizza for lunch, so that is always a plus. I made it through my 8 hour day in one piece, still energetic after my XL coffee this morning, and proud of myself for not tipping over while sitting in the conference room all day.

Leaving, I was never so excited to drive home and go lay in bed. But naturally, because I was so exhausted and so ready to unwind, I was the victim of a hit and run accident on my drive home from work. I got sideswiped by an idiot trying to pass a car, who obviously did not see little ol’ me in the right lane. Damage is minimal but I felt like I was not going to make it the 0.25 miles home after talking to the police and filing a report.

Tomorrow is a new day. I am in bed now about to fall asleep, so I am confident I will be well-rested and ready for the week ahead. xoxo.

Memories made.

Twelve years ago, my brother stepped on the ice for the first time. I was only twelve years old, but I remember it like it was yesterday. He was one of the oldest ones at open skate, and struggled to balance and stop. The kid would literally have to run himself into the boards to stop himself from moving.

I have never seen anybody work as hard as my brother, especially when it comes to hockey. From mites, to his first years of travel, to playing on the highest varsity team in high school, my family has made so many memories through this remarkable sport. Today, this road came to an end.

I spent the weekend in Long Beach, New York watching my brother play his last weekend of hockey. Ever. It does not seem possible, but this is now our reality. These games this weekend were the best games of hockey I have ever seen these last twelve years.

The first game, the boys had 46 shots on goal against the other team’s 13. 46 shots – absolutely unreal. They lost a heartbreaker in OT, but it was one of the best games I’ve seen in years. The second game they beat the #1 team in the state 5 to 1. Again, are you kidding me? Coming off a heartbreaking loss and beating the top team, they were one win away from the next round. Later that night was game three, against another Long Island team, and they won 7 to 1. The comeback was impressive and one of the most thrilling experiences of my life.

Today, day three, we had an 8am semifinal game. Walking into the rink we knew we had to win to make it to the finals, but what mattered more was that we had to win to make my brother’s hockey career longer. Even if it was only by one game. We beat the lone-standing Long Island team in the semifinals 7 to 0. The finals was suddenly down to all Western New York teams.

This was the last game. The buzzer sounded, the score was 3-2, and suddenly it was all over. The book has been written and now it has closed in what seems like the blink of an eye. And they were the NYSAAU Champions.

Hockey ending is a huge part of my life ending. I will miss this just as much, if not more, than my brother will. The last twelve years have been spent at so many rinks, in so many cities, and with so many people. This sport will no longer consume my life, but the memories will forever consume my heart.

I watched my brother grow from a determined little guy to a confident young man, and I feel so blessed not only to have had this opportunity, but to have this kid as my brother. He played his last game ever and he came out as the champion I always knew he was.

 

Safe travels.

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Yesterday, I spent my entire day driving from Buffalo to Long Island, New York.

It was not horrendous by any means. After a couple pit stops along the way, it seemed like I got to the New York City area in no time. I hit zero traffic until I got to the George Washington Bridge entrance. At that point, I was about 30ish miles from my destination, and of course, the exact second traffic hit is when I could not stand being in the car any longer. Those were truly the longest 30 miles of my life and I never thought I would make it to the hotel.

When I finally pulled into the destination, I could not wait to do so much as stand up. Once I got into the room, I basically collapsed on the bed for a solid 20 minutes before unpacking and settling for the night. But, I am here, well-rested and ready for today. xoxo.

 

 

2 out of 12, done!

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How the heck is February already over?! I feel like I blinked and suddenly it is March 1st.

We are now onto our third month of 2017, and again, it seems like so much has happened this month! Some of the month’s most iconic events worldwide include:

  • North Korea prompts international condemnation by test firing a missile across the Sea of Japan.
  • North American blizzard hitting states across the country including New York, Connecticut, Rhode Island, Massachusetts, New Jersey, and Pennsylvania.
  • A lunar eclipse
  • An attack on Afghanistan’s Supreme Court where 22 people were killed and 41 people were wounded.
  • A major tornado causing considerable damage to New Orleans and surrounding areas.
  • The New England Patriots defeated the Atlanta Falcons in overtime to win the Super Bowl LI after overcoming a 25-point deficit.

In regards to my own personal life, I:

  • Still somewhat continued to religiously contribute to this blog, [minus a few days that school work and other aspects of life have overwhelmed me].
  • Completed my last day at my [now old] job, one I have been at the last 4 years of my life, thus closing that chapter.
  • Celebrated my brother’s accomplishments for his final year of hockey including his senior night, watching his team clinch the top spot in their division, and play Super Sunday at the Key Bank Center.
  • Celebrated my brother getting accepted to more colleges, making the total 3/3 [for now].
  • Celebrated my dad’s birthday and my boyfriend’s mom’s birthday with our loved ones.

It doesn’t seem like a lot happened, but hey, February is only 28 days! There are some big changes are coming my way for March 2017, and, I am ready. xoxo.